Buckeye, the international way + its Summer!!

So what does it feel like to come to Buckeye-land as a complete stranger? The reader really doesn’t have to care about any of this. This article is shaped by my opinions and experiences. Yet if you are curious a little, maybe; read on.

The first thing that strikes most international students is: Freedom! Just like any other freshman, this is one of the first real tastes of freedom. Yet for us it’s far more; we are freed from more than just sweet but omnipresent parents. We have a fresh start in a new world where we can be who we want to be. It’s a time for adventure and exploration and much like dogs in a new home we set about sniffing our way around (sometimes literally!). We try to make new friends with all the people we meet and grapple with the challenge of overcoming, sometimes significant cultural barriers. For now (the first few months) most internationals have this much in common. Yet we are people too and we each have different reasons and expectations to be here. So as the going gets tough and the novelty wears out, we crave to go back at least in a sense to the life we knew. I mean, it can get pretty crazy if you hear soccer and have to picture football and while wanting to say football, make a conscientious effort to say soccer. More importantly people miss their own languages, cultures, slangs and social conditioning. We do the obvious, we group up. It does save a lot of the pain; think about it. You can go around being a normal OSU student, talking with classmates and stuff. When you need to unwind, you can do it the way you want to and have always done at home.

Some come here to get a good education, grades and a job back home. Then well, the socializing time isn’t really a needed thing anyways. It’s so much easier to make a nice homely bubble, filled with food, friends and a life reminiscent of home. The rest of the time is better spent in the labs or the library while you race yourself to success. Yet, this is the story of the majority. What happens to those who do try to come out, and why do they try if there is an easy way out? I’ve got to add here, that I make it a point to not over express the dynamics (emotional or psychological) even to my closest friends. Yet once in a while, when I get the time to think about it, and home I do wonder. What the hell am I doing here (Columbus, OH) instead of a sweet summer back home? Sure the place is great and the weather was great, but home’s home, right?

I think the biggest reason (for being where I am) comes not from reasoning or need but from a character trait. As there are people who refuse to consider living outside Ohio, some live to explore the unknown. Call it the explorer gene; I love making it sound foolishly romantic, but hey! Makes me feel good! It’s a gene that can do wonderful things to you: It can make you an extrovert, let you have fun doing different things. It can lower inhibition, make you try baseball and even rock climb and watch soccer game with people who’re devoted to football. It can also keep you at the SEL at 4 AM while doing astrophysics, drinking Starbucks and writing a blog. However, it can also put you in difficult situations and ask difficult questions. Understanding the American bubble system, the social norms, relationships and culture are a few (and trust me, you make so many mistakes and slip so many times as you try to understand). I’ve actually had to consciously try to get savvy on basketball (well, I like it) and tried to on football but decided against that. MLS is a definite yes, but still something new to learn. The biggest problem though, is not the new things you’ve got to get used to. It’s the old things that you miss and families definitely on that list.

 For those who make the bubble of home or go back every year, they get a reprieve. It’s not just the people but also the physical home and its surroundings that help. Like, during summer most of us are bored. Friends visit and we do hang out but it’s not like college. Yet the when you’re home a vast amount of your time is distracted in doing family stuff. From talking with the people, to going around the house to playing video games; normal stuff which we take for granted. The sheer familiarity of the whole setting gives a relief and keeps us occupied just like a Harry Potter or paperback novels. So an international student could actually have a far more interesting and in fact exciting summer than most but it’s going to feel pretty empty and hollow sometimes (like reading Macbeth for the first time).

So why am I here? Well, I want to be. It’s hard sometimes but it’s also fun. You push your ingenuity to discover more things to do to make your life richer by the day. You bike, climb, write posts, do research or just sit on the oval with Pandora on. Pulling an occasional all-nighter, counts; you’ll be judged. I trust if I can embrace the challenge then the strength of character and mind gained will be worth it. On the flip side, it will put a question mark on what’s home for the next few years. I’m afraid it’s going to make me less caring person.

Nearly done!

When I came to America, I had expectations and dreams that were bursting to be realized. I recognize I’m a dreamer and a naïve one at that; so the results weren’t too surprising… or disappointing. As far as it goes, I definitely have no regrets when school is in session. When it isn’t, I guess I have to toughen up and make C-bus as homely as possible. After all, I can still do whatever I want to and no one knows. Mischief managed! 

Go Bucks! (42 days left)

End of the Quarter Personal Abstract of my Life (EPAL)

And its time that I get my blog to myself again. English 110 has taken its space but I do not consider writing another blog post as I have reached my quota. I plan on returning to my regular blogging, so if anyone feels obliged to remove themselves from my blog list please do so. I will not notice or take offense. That said my first blog will be about how this quarter seemed to be one of falling standards and bitter conflicts.

The first one unnaturally enough was incited by English 110. I have never taken a long term structured course and the anomalies of the same language in the United States presented challenges different from the ones I am used to. I must say that I am happy that the course is over, but also happy that it has imparted me with an appreciation of the writing style in this country. Standards also fell to an extent academically as I seem to be losing the idealism that had buoyed me in the beginning of my American Saga. The prospect that this “adventure” is growing old is frightening. The mistake I seem to be making is that I am failing to notice the wide range of change that happens to my life every day.

The positive of this quarter were primarily two folds. I have discovered a most luxurious retreat in “the Gutter”. To the uninformed it does live up to its name in the weekend mornings. Else time it hosts some of the more efficacious and engaging bunch in Taylor. The second positive is meeting a person of importance in my life. While our meeting was a windfall and has a rocky road I am confident that it will have a far longer and happier story. A certain unexpected addition at the end was meeting up with someone from the earlier quarter. I have grown to realize that we share more in common than I presumed last quarter. That too has an interesting journey ahead.

The failures this quarter were fewer but more substantial. The worst was certainly on Saturday, 12^th of November. I let myself be swept away by impulsiveness and made extremely stupid decisions. I find this embarrassing and troubling since I always try to set a high standard for myself. I am human and so I suppose the best I can do now is accept failures and make sure they never repeat themselves. I certainly hope others are more forgiving as I am to myself. That would be unrealistically awesome. I apparently must also:

1.       1. Stop Judging, prethinking and demeaning others at least directly and hurtfully

2.       2. Start consider just being myself instead of posturing to try to please certain people

The latter I do subconsciously but I can affect if I really want to.

As of now I will determine that the next quarter will be significantly better than this one. I will probably return to the personality I was at the beginning of this quarter. It reflected happiness, confidence, care and a dash of dare/ cockiness in a good measure. That is my quarterly resolve and this was my abstract for the winter.